They say the sweetest word i I LOVE YOU and the hardest is GOOD BYE. But what if you discover that there's this big reason behind this words? Will you open up your narrow mind to clearly understand the situation?
I am writing this blog to break my silence. For you to understand what I'm going trough.
I asked for signs and He gave it. I knew it that you can talk against me behind my back. What makes you different with all these high school kids and haters? Are you that immature to broadcast all of these? The fuck! Grow up dude.
You know the reason why I ended texting you. Even my cousin explained it to you. First, I don't wanna involved you in my own personal issue. I know myself too much. I get too moody/ bipolar whenever I have my problems. I know you wouldn't like that. Also, you're the type of person that cares about yourself. I told you I don't want you to help me. I just want you to listen in all my sentiments. Not about your work, your experiences. It makes me frustrated. I felt that I'm such a failure, that I can't do anything. Alam mo yung ganung feeling?
Second, I don't want you to spend in our dates. I know you can afford and all but it just makes me feel useless. II also don't want this to be an issue. Dumaan na ko sa ganito. Ayoko na maulit pa. Feeling ko napaka'user ko. Hindi mo ba naiintindihan yun?
Third, the reason why i don't want to talk to you. Watch tv or movies instead of taking to you? I want you to rest. I know you had a long and tiring day at work, I want you to have a full rest for the next day. Also, you've telling beautiful stories about your work. What do you want me to tell you? How worst my day I've been through? What painful words I received from you-know-who-I-am-talking about? Ganun? Mahirap ba intindihin?
I told myself that as soon as this is over, I'll make bawi to you. I know ako lumayo pero tumigil ka na din.
I will not question the "Magaantay ako. Andito lang ako para sayo." phrases. I explained everything here and I hope you can fully understand my situation. I believed that these are valid reasons behind my actions. Now, it's your time to decide on what will happen to us. I'm sorry if I just walked away without explaining why. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm really sorry.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
From Lovers to Friends.
Here are 5 tips on how to regain the friendship after a relationship. :)
1. Set boundaries.
You guys didn't declared that you're together but you both feel that you are more than friends less than lovers. At this point, you forgot how to act like normal friends since you've become used to skirting the line in your relationship. Reflect on what changes happened in your relationship before and after you saw each other as romantic prospects. Be aware of the boundaries you used to have, and work toward getting back to them--that means, if you were cuddly as almost-lovers, reduce the touchy-feely moments! There will be residual awkwardness at first, but if both of you are determined, you will eventually get to the point where you’re comfortable with each other again.
2. Give yourself time.
Romantic feelings don’t vanish overnight. Even if you were never officially a couple, that doesn’t mean your feelings weren’t real. If you need time to let go, consider giving each other space first. Saving your friendship is important, of course, but you can be friends only when both of you are ready. If you still feel hurt or overwhelmed whenever he’s around, don’t force it. Gradually work yourself back into his life as a friend after you’re sure you’ve let go.
3. Start thinking of him/her as a friend.
Stop referring to him mentally as “the one that got away” and actively start going back to calling him your friend. This will put things in perspective and get you in the right frame of mind, so that the next time you hang out with each other, you’re sure you’re not doing it for all the wrong reasons.
4. Hangout together-- but bring barkada with you.
The best way to ease your way back into a friendly routine is to hang out as a group like you used to pre-MU days. That way, mutual friends are there to act as buffers when things get awkward between the two of you. This also helps remind you how you two can still have fun without the added baggage of a past dating history.
5. Be happy for him/her and for yourself also.
If you’re sincere about your desire to stay friends, the rest of the process should be easier. Although you don’t have to go as far as setting him up with other people (don’t push him, especially if he’s not ready!); encourage him if he decides to get back into the dating game or explore other prospects. This goes the same for you too. If you’re interested in someone else, there’s nothing stopping you from going for it.
1. Set boundaries.
You guys didn't declared that you're together but you both feel that you are more than friends less than lovers. At this point, you forgot how to act like normal friends since you've become used to skirting the line in your relationship. Reflect on what changes happened in your relationship before and after you saw each other as romantic prospects. Be aware of the boundaries you used to have, and work toward getting back to them--that means, if you were cuddly as almost-lovers, reduce the touchy-feely moments! There will be residual awkwardness at first, but if both of you are determined, you will eventually get to the point where you’re comfortable with each other again.
2. Give yourself time.
Romantic feelings don’t vanish overnight. Even if you were never officially a couple, that doesn’t mean your feelings weren’t real. If you need time to let go, consider giving each other space first. Saving your friendship is important, of course, but you can be friends only when both of you are ready. If you still feel hurt or overwhelmed whenever he’s around, don’t force it. Gradually work yourself back into his life as a friend after you’re sure you’ve let go.
3. Start thinking of him/her as a friend.
Stop referring to him mentally as “the one that got away” and actively start going back to calling him your friend. This will put things in perspective and get you in the right frame of mind, so that the next time you hang out with each other, you’re sure you’re not doing it for all the wrong reasons.
4. Hangout together-- but bring barkada with you.
The best way to ease your way back into a friendly routine is to hang out as a group like you used to pre-MU days. That way, mutual friends are there to act as buffers when things get awkward between the two of you. This also helps remind you how you two can still have fun without the added baggage of a past dating history.
5. Be happy for him/her and for yourself also.
If you’re sincere about your desire to stay friends, the rest of the process should be easier. Although you don’t have to go as far as setting him up with other people (don’t push him, especially if he’s not ready!); encourage him if he decides to get back into the dating game or explore other prospects. This goes the same for you too. If you’re interested in someone else, there’s nothing stopping you from going for it.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Things to Start Doing :)
Since I decided to start my diet tomorrow, I should also start doing these:
- Drinking a lot of water/tea and lessen my coffee.
- Eating BIG BREAKFAST, AVERAGE LUNCH and TINY DINNER. (This is a must!)
- Eating fruits & vegetable and natural food. I should lessen eating processed meat/foods.
- Going for a swim, run, walk or bike ride. (Am I thinking of becoming a triathlete? Why not?)
- Reading a book. (Mom said that reading a book can help you enhance your vocabulary and knowledge!)
- Going to bed earlier. (I also should start getting a lot of sleep. I will not have this when I start working!)
- Stop thinking negative thoughts about myself and others. I choose to embrace positivity! :)
- I shall not dwell on the past. :)
- ENJOYING THE LITTLE THINGS IN LIFE. (A saying that I always carry!)
- Not judging or comparing myself to others. As what Lady Gaga said, "Baby, you were born this way!"
- Beginning yoga or meditation. :D
- Do not put things off.
- As what I've said in #3, avoid processed foods.
- Stretch daily to increase my flexibility. Stop being a couch potato!!
- Listening to peaceful music.
- Living in a tidy place.
- Wearing clothes that makes me happy. Be fashionable!
- Throwing away things that I don't need.
- I shall remember that all the effort I'm making now will pay off in the end.
- And going outside. :D
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Words to Live By. :)
I haven't update this blog for a while. Because of what happened to me for the past few weeks, I've learned new things and I had this little realizations. Here are some.:
1. Make peace with your past so it doesn't spoil your present.
2. What others think of you is none of your business.
3. Time heals almost everything, so give the time some time.
4. No one is the reason of your happiness except YOU, yourself. :)
5. Don't compare your life with others, you have no idea what their journey is all about.
6.Stop thinking to much. It's alright not to know all the answer.
7. SMILE! You don't own all the problems in the world.
Make these as your inspiration as your day goes by. It will help you and look on the positive side of the world. :)
1. Make peace with your past so it doesn't spoil your present.
2. What others think of you is none of your business.
3. Time heals almost everything, so give the time some time.
4. No one is the reason of your happiness except YOU, yourself. :)
5. Don't compare your life with others, you have no idea what their journey is all about.
6.Stop thinking to much. It's alright not to know all the answer.
7. SMILE! You don't own all the problems in the world.
Make these as your inspiration as your day goes by. It will help you and look on the positive side of the world. :)
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